Longing for Love

So, I’ve been watching a lot of romantic movies lately…

Actually, I’m not sure if that’s true, but I have been watching a lot of movies lately that have romantic elements– don’t they all? You know, it also probably doesn’t help that my sister-in-law and I love to watch all those bridal shows on TLC…

Anyway, as I’ve been watching all these love stories, I’ve noticed a longing in my heart, a deep desire for someone to share life with me. Something in my heart resonated with those stories of two people who don’t care where they live, how much money they have, what jobs they can get, as long as they can be together and keep loving each other.

Something in my heart cried, “I want that.”

It was as if I were saying to myself: I could handle this-and-this, I could get through that-and-that… I could live somewhere I don’t want to, I could have a job I don’t like, I could even have hardly a cent to my name, as long as I had someone with me, someone to love me, someone in whom to find joy.

So I had to remind myself: Robyn, you have all of that and more already.

Two years ago, I wrote a blog about how close we are to the greatest love there is. (I’m even reusing the picture for this post.) I wrote about the God who loves me more than I can even begin to understand. That is the love I have, right now and forever. That is love that enables me to go through anything and come out rejoicing.

I’ve already got Someone to share life with me– better than that, Someone who wants to give me abundant life. It doesn’t matter where I live, what I do, how much much stuff I have, because I am in love with the Lover of my soul.

I want this truth to be present in my mind at all times. I want to fall more in love with my God every day. I don’t want to long for someone else. I don’t want to feel like I need someone else.

God, make Your love real to me. I know that it is, but remind me please. Help me to love You more and more each day, each minute. Help me to continuously give You my heart, that each day would be like a wedding celebration with the one true Love of my life.

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If Grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.

“For many, romantic love is the closest experience of pure grace. Someone at last feels that I – I! – am the most desirable, attractive, companionable creature on the planet. Someone lies awake at night thinking of me. Someone forgives me before I ask, thinks of me when he gets dressed, orders his life around mine. Someone loves me just the way I am.” – Philip Yancey, What’s So Amazing About Grace?

My friends, we have this someone already!

Yes, I, a single twenty-something college student, have already met the One who loves me just the way I am. The One who thinks of me constantly. The One who forgives me before I ask – who has already forgiven me for all eternity.photo taken by my friend along Galilee

So why do I live as though I haven’t?

Why do I go about my days feeling like I’m not good enough, like I’ll never find love, like I’ll never do anything right?

Psalm 139:17-18 says “How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered! I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand!”

God’s thoughts for you, for me, outnumber the grains of sand. …What?

Trust me, I just spent a month in a desert. That’s a LOT of thoughts.

He is thinking about you and me constantly, all the time, even when we aren’t thinking about Him. Even when we aren’t thinking about anything. While we’re sleeping, God is thinking about us, and He can’t wait for us to wake up in the morning to greet the new day He has for us.

I forgot about this. Two months ago, I had it written in a journal and read it every day, and now I’ve forgotten.

The God of the Universe thinks about me, constantly. And you. And the whole world. We are always on His mind. He never forgets about us, though so many times I forget the things I’ve learned about Him.

A friend the other day asked me a seemly simple question, “How are you enjoying life? Making use of the endless grace made available?

What if we talked like this all the time? What if we reminded each other daily of that pure grace, of that perfect love of God – the greatest love there is?

I don’t ever want to forget.

Back in February, I wrote a similar post on this topic that you can read here: My Beautiful Rescue

My Beautiful Rescue.

I have so much going through my head right now and I haven’t written a thing… I’m going to try and pick it apart one by one, so… here’s one.

Love.

Happily ever after, finding the person you want spend the rest of your life with, the person you would give anything for, and the person who would do the same for you; it’s finding that someone, and then suddenly all the love songs in the world make sense and apply directly to you. You’re in love and you’re happy. Most of us think that’s as good as it gets.

We’re wrong.

We’re close, but we’re wrong.

We have been trained in this thought process from a very young age. (Though, I guess, I can really only speak for girls here.) I mean, think about it: what are all the Disney classics about? Romance, finding your Prince Charming, can you feel the love tonight?

Ever since we were little kids, we knew we were not meant to be alone. We craved that special someone, our prince, the one who would love us, always and forever, no matter what.

But it wasn’t just Disney, the whole world was after this idea. Soon we heard song after song professing undying love for a man or a woman… There were poems, literature, even stories in history.

Love. It’s the best thing around. It’s the only reason to live. Your lover makes life bearable, keeps you going, breathes life into you.

Like I said, we’re close. So close.

But that’s not the best love there is.

I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately after a friend of mine spoke about it at church one day. His words totally hit me right where I sat.

I’m writing about this now because everywhere I turn, I am reminded of how much I want someone, someone to love and someone to love me back. I want to be like that girl in all those songs… or like that couple on TV who suddenly realize they’re madly in love with each other… I want that.

But I am given so much more.

There is a God who loves me more than I can even begin to understand.

He knows everything about me, all my flaws, all my insecurities, and yet He still loves me, and will love me even when I turn away from Him, which I will do constantly, because I am human and will try to fill my need for Him with other things. Yet, He is always there, waiting with open arms.

He created me to love me. And then He died for me, to show me just how far He was willing to go to bring me back to Him.

That, my friends, is the greatest love story ever told.

And it’s real, and it’s true, and it’s completely ALIVE in our lives today.

Sometimes, I just need to be reminded of that.