There’s so much in my head,
I just can’t get it O– U —T.
People tell me I’m a good writer, that I do good works with my words, but when I can’t update this blog or post for Kingdom Dreams regularly, I feel like I’ve failed them.
I tell people I’m a writer, that it’s what I want to do in my life, but when I don’t write regularly, when I don’t sweat words every day, I feel like I’ve failed myself.
But the only One I really don’t want to fail is God — but how can I? I mean, I fail Him many times, yes, but how can I ever fail Him so much that He doesn’t offer grace to cover me? How can I be the one to fail His plan — isn’t He greater than my failures? Isn’t He stronger than my weaknesses? (Isn’t He stronger than my strengths, too?)
God, You’ve given me a talent; help me not to bury it in the ground, but to cultivate it, to use it, to grow.
I want to be a writer.
I want to write.
I just don’t know what that looks like sometimes.